Thursday, 1 January 2015

41. Let's give it up for the New Year

Happy New year I guess.

  Before we get into this new dawn, let us spare a thought or two for the year that has just passed.

Good fucking riddance!

2014 was not a great year for me. I'm pretty sure I spent from mid January hating almost every moment of it.

Which is a bit of an odd notion.
I have never had the urge to do as many things as I have this year.
I have been really inspired to do what I love and to try not to give a fuck about those who look down on it.
But the whole year was just bad thing after bad thing happening to me and my family.
That just created this bubbling pit of apathy and anger, which crept into everything I did and made me not enjoy, well, anything.

You cans see this in the inconsistency of my updates, and the lack of constructive posts outside of The Cardboard Cartographer.

The last 6 weeks have been a massive turn around. I threw caution to the wind and just got out.
I tried to see all the bands I enjoy, tried to see as many people as possible a soften as I felt the need, and tried to drag myself away from looking back at the past.
This culminated in one of the best New years eve's ever; surrounded by friends, enjoying life.

I want to look forward.

So that brings me to 2015.
A New Year. A new start. More clichés.

I hate that shit. But for once, I'm going to indulge in that idea.

I want to get back to begin me minus the depressive state of mind that has plagued me since forever.

So maybe lets talk resolutions.
I mean, they should be for life, not just for the New Year right?

My resolution is a bit of a cop out I guess.
Make a list of things I want and achieve that.
I want to do more. Make more. Live more.
Be happy more.

I guess it is the bucket list idea, but instead of just a one off experience, it will be goals to consistently work towards.

So that is it.
Stay tuned for more from The Cardboard Cartographer this year, and hopefully other stuff too.
I want to see if I can beat the 22 posts from this year.

Only time will tell.


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